Traveling and Old Habits
Things are diassociating themselves without constant reinforcement.
I am really enjoying my time here, my friends, everything. I feel as though everything I have asked for has been fulfilled, every thing I have been looking for, everywhere I have been interested in traveling: south of France, Switzerland, Cinque Terre, finding a pair of cheap, dressier shoes after telling a friend I was looking for some. Finding a sturdy backpack in the sports store.
Traveling alone will be heartbreaking and useful. Maybe not while it is occurring, but later. I’m glad I’m doing so much additional traveling with friends… I’ve just wanted to spend time alone, to do things on my own, and that has definitely fallen into place.
I’ve felt very reassured that after this period of reorientation my same instincts and desires are coming back: the desire to be a vegetarian, to return to my yoga practice, to continue studying various spiritual scriptures. I’m glad those weren’t just a phase as I had feared. I hope the Iyengar Center emails me back soon with details about their classes.
What more to say? Thinking about it, Italy was the best possible choice I could ever have made regarding my plans to study abroad. I had many choices. How did Italy come about? I believe it was sometime following being forced to see I’m Not Scared at the Embarcadero Theater after Coffee & Cigarettes was sold out. The movie made me realize how important my choice to study abroad was; in a way, it woke me up what I really wanted, and then, quite simply, I followed. It reminded me of how long I’d been enamored with the Italian people, culture and language. It kept me from defaulting into studying in Brazil (because it had a small language requirement and I would just have to continue with some elementary level of Spanish). Not that studying in Brazil wouldn’t have been rewarding, just that it wasn’t my specific desire. I’m very proud that I took the classes I needed to to be able to study here; moving into a brand new language, taking the harder route, just as I plan to do with becoming a Religious Studies minor. Hopefully, hopefully, I can carry it through.
I am really enjoying my time here, my friends, everything. I feel as though everything I have asked for has been fulfilled, every thing I have been looking for, everywhere I have been interested in traveling: south of France, Switzerland, Cinque Terre, finding a pair of cheap, dressier shoes after telling a friend I was looking for some. Finding a sturdy backpack in the sports store.
Traveling alone will be heartbreaking and useful. Maybe not while it is occurring, but later. I’m glad I’m doing so much additional traveling with friends… I’ve just wanted to spend time alone, to do things on my own, and that has definitely fallen into place.
I’ve felt very reassured that after this period of reorientation my same instincts and desires are coming back: the desire to be a vegetarian, to return to my yoga practice, to continue studying various spiritual scriptures. I’m glad those weren’t just a phase as I had feared. I hope the Iyengar Center emails me back soon with details about their classes.
What more to say? Thinking about it, Italy was the best possible choice I could ever have made regarding my plans to study abroad. I had many choices. How did Italy come about? I believe it was sometime following being forced to see I’m Not Scared at the Embarcadero Theater after Coffee & Cigarettes was sold out. The movie made me realize how important my choice to study abroad was; in a way, it woke me up what I really wanted, and then, quite simply, I followed. It reminded me of how long I’d been enamored with the Italian people, culture and language. It kept me from defaulting into studying in Brazil (because it had a small language requirement and I would just have to continue with some elementary level of Spanish). Not that studying in Brazil wouldn’t have been rewarding, just that it wasn’t my specific desire. I’m very proud that I took the classes I needed to to be able to study here; moving into a brand new language, taking the harder route, just as I plan to do with becoming a Religious Studies minor. Hopefully, hopefully, I can carry it through.
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